The War Began

Assalamualaikum , haaaa lama gila bak hang kau tak update blog kan ? Tk ada masa and aku lupa password. Nak di ikutkan cerita so many story to share with. Nahhh nvm , I write so many time nobody read it. It's just more to like my diary. When I'm too bored I can read it again again and again. Well when read it again its sound look funny ... Hehe . Maybe dengan adanya blog ni aku try untuk improve BI aku , in case nanti muet ada essay boleh cover up. But I'll keep trying . 

Back to story , okay guess what ? Now I'm totally 19 and next year 20 ? Allah time so fast , and so many mistake that I keep learning. Now melangkah ke zaman di mana ia di panggil SURVIVE . Dah tak ada zaman minta mak duit nak keluar or what like waste a time. Umur macamni nak minta duit dekat mak bapak pun malu tau. Tapi tulah kena pandai berjimat satu and pandai jaga diri satu. Tak pandai jaga diri hmmm habislah. Well said tak ada istilah kena suap baru nak jalan or whatever lah. Everythings must do it alone. 

Then , banyak lah aku nak cakap nak luah tak terkira banyak nya. Sebab aku bukan aktif blog sangat. Dulu yelah zan zaman facebook kala. Hahaha , now nak share blog dekat orang pun segan yelah takut cerita kita kat blog ni merepek je banyak. And now what ? I keep trying to be the best daughter to my mom and my dad also my atok. Tanpa diaorang I never stand right now.

I'm not enough to be a good to my family. But I'll try and try. I keep learn from my mistake and take it as benefit.

Yelah aku ni cepat down , cepat mengalah. But apa yang aku belajar , aku tak boleh lemah. Maybe aku tak lah pandai sangat but keep hardworking maybe it works to be a good person. Even down , biasalah student mana tak ada masalah. Kecil hati dengan kawan tu pekara biasa , but it's okay. Dah biasa so dah lali semua tu. Just go on, jangan layan sangat perasaan and nobody cares about your feeling bila zaman ipt ni. Nak tahu sebab apa ? Yes as you know for dip only 2years smthg , and your friend just know you only a months. Tak tolak cuti tak sampai pun dua tahun. They don't know you more. Then they keep hurt you day by day. What do you do? Pendam , tanam and mereput. Tu je mampu. Well thats typical human. Lagipun Allah kata sabar itu indah. 

So , waktu pun berjalan dengan pantas. And now 2016. It's seem to fast to growth up. Rasa macam semalam aku belajar dalam kelas pakai baju sekolah. It really2 hurt everytime. I still don't get it. Banyak benda aku kena belajar. Apa yang penting niat tu, mesti betul. Mungkin niat aku pada awal agak salah, when you just think for working and get money only for your future. Yes it really important tbh. But what it is must niat tu betulkan. Why we keep this learn ? Why we must know it ? Why ,? And now I know , knowledge never stop. Lagi2 ilmu Allah ni. Sampai lah kita mati tak pernah habis. And now I really2 realize that I must love Ilmu Allah SWT. What I must supposed to do. What I doing here ? Allah have answer for all my question. Yes , niat kita sebenarnya kena cintakan Ilmu Allah. Buat semua kerana Allah , Niat kerana Allah. You succsess in your life but you still don't get it. Apa yang dah cukup dah ada semua ada, kekayaan kemewahan but ilmu Allah you just left it. You never chase it.

Aku bukan lah manusia yang sempurna, banyak dosa. Banyak sangat dosa aku kat Allah, . Aku tak pandai tak bijak dan kadang kadang lambat tangkap sesuatu perkara. Tapi Allah itu Maha Penyayang dia bantu hambanya untuk mencari jalan keluar . Ya , aku cuba selagi boleh. Aku cuba berusaha untuk mengubah nasib hidup aku. Allah kau selalu bersama dengan aku. Kau bantulah aku, aku tidak mengapa jika secara perlahan lahan. Aku terima, aku rasa hina kerana selalu meminta minta dengan Mu. Tapi apa kan daya hanya Kau tempat aku mengadu. Jika niat ku ini betul untuk ke jalan Mu. Bantulah hambaMu yang kerdil lagi hina ini. Amiinn :')